Mind blackouts

It’s crazy how our mind can go black at times and we do the dumbest stuff anyone could imagine. Losing any senses of things lately and managing to make a massive mess around me. Blackouts of any logical thinking.

Today is one of those days when I just wish the ground would split up for a second and I could jump in there and hide for a while. Because right now there is nothing to take away that guilt feeling for being absolutely dumb and making horrible decisions.